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Friday, June 3rd, 2005
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I've made a new livejournal - ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) tehsp0rk I just felt like having a fresh start, I've been wanting to start using LJ again for awhile. So add that to your friends list if you care :) |
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| There's just no words... |
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Friday, January 21st, 2005
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mood:  contemplative
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I'm sure everyone to whom it matters knows what happened Tuesday morning. I won't waste any time re-telling what happened - I'll just post a link to the Newsday story for anyone who doesn't know and is curious. http://www.newsday.com/news/local/longisland/ny-lifata0119,0,2177800.story (The first story)
I just don't know what to say... I was right there about ten minutes later. There was too much chaos for me to see anything, except that it was a bad accident. It never even crossed my mind that it was what it was. I couldn't even wrap my brain around the concept for hours, and part of me still can't. But now I've had time to think and I just felt like writing in here, my old buddy which I haven't used for months.
Oh yeah, I can't promise this entry will be in any sort of order... I just wanna talk, if only to myself.
The first thing that just came to my mind is how I just feel like I don't have the right to be upset and emotional... Ms.Rosenblum came in our English class this morning and talked to us. Everyone was so silent... And I brought up some stuff, like the crazy video for "The Pearl" she and her group did in 9th grade English and whether or not Mrs.Romano still had those tapes... And then afterwards I just felt bad about it, like it wasn't my place to make suggestions. I was afraid her good friends would think I was an asshole or something.
It probably makes no sense, but I just want to be as respectful as possible...
Also, I find myself grieving more for Jon now. Is it wrong to mourn the one who survived more than the one who died? Probably, I'm just messed up. Laryssa, may God rest her soul, died immediately... She probably didn't have any time for fear or pain or grief, or only a few seconds. Now she is in peace. But Jon...he had to see it all. He was driving the car. He walked away and she was never to walk again. It will haunt him forever. The sheer reality of what he went through/is going through makes me ill. Will the same old Jon ever be back? Or have we lost him too, in a different way? For anyone reading this to whom it matters, never let Laryssa be forgotten, but please don't forget Jon either. He's going to need everyone he can get to lean on, I believe. And I make no claims to be a therapist, but if I were you I wouldn't mention the accident to him, at least not in the near future. For now, just give him love and support free from the terrible demons of what happened. I think that if it's brought up, even in an expression of sympathy, it would only make things worse. This is just my opinion of course... I really really wish there was more I could do :( It's such a damn shame I've been so shy these years and never made myself known to anyone.
Even though I have a close relationship with very few (due to my cursed unsociability) of them, I feel a strong bond with all my fellow honors classmates. I've been in classes with the same group of people since middle school, and people, you're the shining stars of this class. I'm proud of you and would gladly call most all of you 'friend'. Lord knows there aren't enough of you in this crappy human cesspool of a town. You may not know me very well, but I feel like I know all of you. Thank you for making me laugh with your silly video-taped English projects. Thanks for the interesting debates in U.S. History. Thanks for posting the homework on the internet so I could copy it. Thank you all for the scraps of good memories that I got out of highschool... I love you, class of 2005, and may we all live on and prosper.
That's all for now. I'm going to try to go to the wake tommorow. And I'm always here to talk. Don't be afraid of me. |
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Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
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| First day of school - teh review |
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Wednesday, September 8th, 2004
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mood:  calm
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Yes folks, today was my first day of school. The last mystical First Day of School I will ever have in the glory that is a public Highschool. For it is my last year here, and I couldn't be more relieved. But the remainder of my time here doesn't seem like it'll be all that unbearable - I already got past most of the annoying required classes and now I get to take tons of useless electives to fill my little schedule. So without further ado, here is my class-by-class breakdown of my glorious first day of Senior year...
( KLICK HEER )
So yep, that was it in a nutshell. Just 179 (give or take) more days of it to go... |
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| Goodbye summer... |
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Tuesday, September 7th, 2004
@ 10:28pm |
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mood:  depressed
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Sight...
Another summer, gone by in a flash.
School tommorow.
I don't wanna go :( Save meee... |
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| Revised schedule |
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Thursday, September 2nd, 2004
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Miraculously, I managed to squeeze myself in for a brief appointment with my guidance counselor at school today to adjust my schedule. I think it went rather well, though I wasn't apposed to go there for elective changes :x But I'm glad I did, or else all the electives in the periods being altered would have been full. Without further ado, here it is:
Period 1 - English AP
Period 2 - Coll. Algebra
Period 3 - Orchestra
Period 4 - Phys Ed/Study Hall
Period 5 - Intro to Prog.
Period 6 - Economics/Gvmt. AP
Period 7 - Food and Nutrition (bullshit elective, hoorah!)
Period 8 - Criminal Law
Period 9 - Lunch
Yep, I got my 9th period lunch, so I get to leeeeeeave early. wahoo! And 7th period I get to, uhh, cook stuff. |
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| GMail Update |
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Monday, August 30th, 2004
@ 11:48pm |
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mood: accomplished
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Well, luck has struck me and now I have six more invites! I gave two out already, so I have 10 total. If anyone wants one, please speak up or forever hold your peace! |
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| GMail Invites |
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Sunday, August 29th, 2004
@ 5:19pm |
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mood:  geeky
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Well, I just noticed that I've finally received a few Gmail invites! Six to be exact. All I need now is people to give them out to... So if anyone wants to request, feel free to reply here.
And in case you haven't heard, GMail is Google's super-cool new email service. Your mailbox limit is a whopping 1 gigabyte. That's a LOT of email, folks. It's also got a neat labelling and archiving/searching system. But it's by invite only! |
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| My (tentative) schedule |
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Saturday, August 28th, 2004
@ 12:30pm |
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mood: content
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Those damn schedules FINALLY came. Without further ado, here's mine:
Period 1. English 12AP - Kilgannon
Period 2. Coll. Algebra - Stanley
Period 3. Orchestra - Noll
Period 4. Phys. Ed. - Antonicelli (A DAY)/ Sr. Study Hall(B DAY)
Period 5. Intro. Programming - Cetron
Period 6. Economics AP - Roche (A DAY)/ Gvmt. & Politics - O'Boyle (B DAY)
Period 7. Lunch
Period 8. Criminal Law - Wildes
Period 9. Col. Spanish - Epstein
All and all I'm not too displeased with this schedule, but I do want to make one change. I'm going to drop College spanish because this teacher is kinda hard and I honestly don't think I'll have the time for it. Plus I took a year of it already, and most majors don't require more then that anyway. So I want to put lunch 9 and something else (study hall? hehe) for 7. I've gotta see if I can get an appointment with guidence before school starts.
And also, WTF is with this Day A/Day B shit? This is the third time they've changed that in the time I've been there. First it was odd/even days, then day one/day two, and now this. Geez, make up your mind! And why did they give all the seniors really long and hard to remember ID numbers? The incompetency of this school never ceases to amaze :P |
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| More computer fun |
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Monday, August 16th, 2004
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mood:  determined
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Well, I'm finally home from my grandma's. I always miss my kitties and my busted bed when I'm away from home.
So yeah, when I got home I can the bright (aka retarded) idea to try and put the hard drive from my dad's now-defunct computer into mine to see if I could access the stuff on it and try and back some of it up, since it needs to be reformatted before an OS can be installed on it. After a strenuous physical battle just to get my tower out of it's little desk nook (gotta fix that shelf...) I opened it up with my trusty philips-head screwdriver...
First of all, HP was at least courteous enough to make the case so you can slide out the, uh, thing where the hard drives and my 3.5" floppy drive are. After fighting with it for awhile I figured that out, neat! So I slid in the 30 gb drive in the top bay and tried to attach the "slave" IDE ribbon cable thing into it. After fighting with that for awhile, I found that the "master" needs to be on top (::Snicker::), otherwise I couldn't really maneuver the cable to go into both. So I ended removing BOTH hard drives and putting my 80 gb one on top and the 30 gb one on the bottom, all whilst trying not to tear anything out of the motherboard or anything. So I had both drives attached all nice and snug, put everything together, and booted up my PC.
I got as far as the "HP" logo thing and then got a disk error. Fux0r :P Messed around in the BIOS a bit. Well, it recognized ONE of the hard drives in the BIOS, but since they're both Maxtors (and all it seemed to say was "Maxtor") I couldn't tell which. I made it that far and then went whining to daddy because I thought I really broke it then, hehe. And then he just unplugged the 30 gb hard drive, I booted again and it was fine :| (Except for that the video drivers still keep breaking, but that's another story) So I guess the 30 gb one is really gimped after all, or maybe my computer is just gimped and doesn't recognize it.
So what did this all achieve? Absolutely nothing, except uneeded stress and a change in location of my main HDD. Oh wait, I shouldn't say it was TOTALLY pointless. I -did- kinda successfully 'install' a hard drive, since I removed and relocated my original hard drive. So I guess in the future, if I ever get another HDD or something, I might actually know how to install it :P Oh yeah, and I shocked myself like five times! It wasn't serious electrocution or anything, but I got zapped a few times... Mostly plugging back in the monitor. Everything WAS off, so I dunno what was up with that.
Alright, enough rambling. Somehow fighting with my hardware and NOT ending up with a broken computer made me feel better...like that the Godz of Comp00tarz had mercy on me or something :P |
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